You think I ain't worth a dollar, but I feel like a millionaire!

The first song off of the "Songs for the Deaf" cd by QOTSA. That's my emotions going into this festive season. I couldn't be anything remotely close to a person who is rich to you, but on my insides, I have a publishers' clearinghouse emotion going on. Maybe it's the idea that I am standing up for myself with one of my weaknesses, or it's the fact that I don't need them to make me feel happy with myself. Either 1 or 2 is the reason for my upbeat season. I am just in a relax, New York state of mind. Then again, I am in a New Fortune state of mind. The wheels on my creative vehicle have been moving well on the highways of life. Like pieces to a jigsaw puzzle, I have been placing it all together, and at a fast pace. Yesterday, I emailed 3 slices of my creative pie to my friend back in New Orleans. As always, he was honored to read them. I just wish he did a follow-up. I would like to know how they turned out. I know they were written with a good idea in mind, but I don't know if he read them the way I would. I mean, I had a certain rhythm with I was present on the open mic stage. I switched up the delivery often, and that kept many audiences on their listening toes. That was how I proved myself as a mighty wordsmith on the creative scene in the streets of New Orleans.

I haven't taken the correct approach in applying my verbal gifts to the people of DFW, yet. I am not shy in front of the audience, but I have been more focused on completing my projects, instead of sharing them at the weekly open mics. Plus, I don't won't to have an emotional letdown from seeing how they treat these events in DFW. I am trying not to put to much pressure on the whole scene, and compare it to the scene down by the bayou, and then conclude that this one doesn't have that much to offer. Writing this scene off because of my inability to move forward is a mistake, and I will not make that hasty conclusion. Basically, because I fell in mad love with the whole N.O. movement, and then she and I had to separate for the time being. I don't won't to take on a new love, even though I know it has to be this way. Who knows, maybe in 2006, I will reign supreme on the DFW scene, but if I don't I can't worry.

So what am I buying Jessica Alba for X-Mas? I honestly, don't know what to get for her. I have an idea of what she would like, but I will not drop any hints. If I know her, she's reading this blog just hoping I divulge my plans for that evening. Sorry Dark Angel, you will have to wait.

Adriana, Adriana, that name just makes my mind quiver with excitement, joy, glee, and envy. Envy because I don't know her. I have never had the pleasure of laying my eyes to her eyes, and smiling at her. Even if she didn't smile back, I would be pleased to know I attempted to get at her. So I need this segment the same as it began, Adriana, Adriana.

Nicole, you are my sweetheart, and I will have you a precious gift. Why? Because she is everything to me. I ask, no I plead, that she love me two times. PCD rules.
Happy holidays to you all, and remember to keep the kids indoors on the DEC.25. They did until the 1800's. So let's go back to that, and know that if the bible's hero was born in the spring. Plus his story is very bad corroborated, so be careful at X-Mas services.

til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness