The past haunts me!

I have been trying my best to not recall past relationships that have soured, but all my efforts seem to be for naught. Today, I had a recollection of a girlfriend I was involved with in high school, and the good times and bad times that led to our calling it quits. It's been a few years now, but from time to time, I still hold the questions in my head, " I wonder?" I wonder, what it would be like have her and I several years deep into a situation. I just think about stuff, that only a time machine could answer. I mean, I could speculate on how she and I would have our college degrees, planning our first weddings, planning for the future together, but that is very assuming, and I try not to make many grand assumptions. Maybe a month or so ago, I ran into one of her best friends in high school. I gave her my phone number, and though she said, " she and her rarely talk now, because my former friend is in some government services, that she would take my number and if by some miracle, she will give her my number now. I haven't been waiting for that miracle to occur, but I have kept tabs on how long it could take to come into fruition. I am moving on, like I know she has already done, but I still want a chance to make things right between us. I don't have the idea that I can get her back, but I know it's not farfetched if she and I both wanted the same thing. I haven't spoken to her for years, so I don't know what she wants. Who knows, she may already have everything she has ever wanted.

Dark Angel, I still find myself being sucked into this series. Maybe it's my bias for Jessica Alba, no, it's my bias for Jessica Alba that keeps me watching this show. I can't get enough of this girl. I have seen a girl kick so much ass on t.v., prior Alias and Jennifer Garner. Then again, Alias came out with this show around the same time. So in reality, both of these ass kicking beauties were on t.v. at the same time, sweet. Back to Dark Angel, Max(Jessica) had a twin on the last episode that aired last night on the Dish Channel Sitv 159. The twin(453) had motivation for hunting down Max(Jessica)(452) back when all of Max's members broke away from Manicore. Manicore, is a corporation in future years who have secretly created transgenic humans. Manicore is the U.S.A. government, but it's a secret to the american people. A lot of back story to explain, and I don't have the necessary time or proper knowledge of the details to explain fully. So, I will continue to explain the why Max's twin wants to find her and hold her hostage until some Manicore guys come and pick her up. 453, has a family, and her husband and son are taken hostage. 453 is trapped in this situation. She honestly, didn't care to meet 452, but because of the circumstances swirling around, she had no choice in the matter. Plus, because 452 left 453, 453 does have some unfinished business with her. 453 and all the other odd numbers were treated brutally because of the twelve even numbers who escaped Manicore some years back. The odd numbers were treated harshly because they were the twins of the evens, and the Manicore scientists believed because they were twins they too were flight risks. So to avoid that happening again, the scientists were treating the subjects like shit. So you got all that? Very live stuff going on this episode. Suffice it to say, I love Jessica Alba still.

til next time, hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness.

The BCS should be changed!

That's right, like many people before and many who will quote this phrase after me. The Bowl Championship series in college football sucks. I am pissed, that my Oregon Ducks, who boast a 10-1 record should be excluded from the big money New Years Day games. It's a travesty to the sport. Notre Dame, shouldn't even be considered for a game in the sport. Ohio State, another team who is widely considered a favorite for a New Years Day game, has two losses on their record. I know they lost to TX, and another team, who I can't remember right now. They shouldn't be in the running for a big money game. I have always had my vote cast for a college football playoff. I recall a few years back when the Nebraska Cornhuskers were ushered into the title game that year, and they had lost the Big 12 title game to the Colorado Buffaloes. They got their asses whipped that year, but they were selected by the BCS system to go forward and get their ass kicked by Florida ST. That year, we should've played Florida ST. Last year, Auburn had an undefeated season, but they weren't allowed to play USC, who were declared the national champions. I don't know if the Auburn Tigers would've beaten the Trojans, but I would've liked to have seen them play one more game. It's too early to say if we should be playing for the title game, but I think if either TX or USC loses we should be inserted into the title game. If the trojans wouldn't have cheated their way to victory in Auzten Stadium early into the football season, maybe, we would be the team who was going to the title game. Honestly, the trojans were the better team that day, and they kicked our butts. That's my stance on the BCS, and I hope you will research this and conclude what I have already done. We must agree that the BCS needs to change soon.

Irvin, my favorite wide receiver is in the court of public opinion again. The Plano police stopped him, and searched his car and discovered some utensils used for drug usage. Irvin denies that these tools are his and has set out to prove his innocence. Personally, I want to believe that Irvin is telling the truth. I want to give him the benefit of doubt, but he has burned so many bridges in the past. It's hard to root for this guy, because when you think he has finally gotten it, something like this takes place. I want him look himself in the mirror and realize how many people this has affected. Noted, I am not a little child anymore, and I don't view him as my hero, but I know what type of talent this guy had on the football field. It's a shame to think that this latest stint, could keep him out of the pro football hall of fame forever. As a Cowboys fan, it's hurtful because we know he deserves to be enshrined into that prestigious museum. I just hope you get together Mike.

Well, I am still trying to figure out which school I should try to enroll in. Also add, that FEMA, has no plans on helping me out at all. I guess they don't care that Hurricane K, has taken away my dreams of graduating in 07 with my degree. Although, I still plan to graduate in 07 it will be 1-2 semesters short of my goal. This is frustrating, I don't think they can grasp the actuality of this situation. I know they saw the videos and photos, but to really live it is something totally different. The fine people of TX has treated me with kindness, I don't know how long this will last, but to feel that they care is something great to behold. After all, I still haven't lost my last ounces of optimism in humanity, and that's a good thing. Maybe, I will become more proficient writer because of this daunting experiences, but that remains to be seen. Well, in my scope of viewing things, I think I have picked up some new tidbits here and there. I just don't see it coming in my favor, yet. I know I am close to something special, but I don't know if I will be able to grab it when it shows itself around my circumference again.

Jessica Alba, you are my inspiration. I dream of meeting you one day real soon. Pussycatdolls, mostly Nicole, I love you. til next time.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness.

I adjust to life!

On yesterday, I was at the shopping center in Arlington, TX and I saw, what else, some sexy females. Now, I know you might be asking yourselves, " Why didn't you approach any of these sexy females?" Well, a lot of them were already shopping with a boyfriend, girlfriend, or spouse. What I have noticed is that many females aren't single in North Texas. They are already involved with someone, or either I interpret them being seriously involved with someone. It could be my mistakes that I am making,l but I don't know. Oh yeah, I was rocking a t-shirt that had three chicks on it, they were some scantily clad females, man. I had the red bandanna on, and I was wearing it well. At this particular shopping mall, I like to hang upstairs around the ice skating park, and watch the people skate on the ice and fall on their asses. It never fails, there is always a very tempting chick on the ice and she might be skating with a friend of hers or not. On this occasion she was skating with her friend, and her friend wasn't as adept at ice skating as she was. The female looked like she was between the ages of 18-20, but looks are deceiving. She noticed that I was watching her, and looked upstairs often to make eye contact with me. I knew she had given me the greenlights to approach her, but I didn't know how old she was, so I passed on that hot piece of ass. I don't get upset though, because I know there will always be more hot pieces coming my way.

I went into the stores and purchased a shirt. As I was walking out the doors of SEARS, a very attractive female was clacking her heels behind me. I turned around to see how this person in clacking shoes looked, and as I exited the door, I held it for her. As she walked passed and said thank you, " I whispered to her, that I would hold the door for her all day." Outside, she strolled in front of my viewing areas, and immediately I was smittened with her even more than before. I tell you no lie, she had it going on like J.Lo. I tried to get her attention, but she was having none of it. As I verbally beckoned for her, I watched as she went to the passenger side of a car, and while she entered, she made a last ditch of eye contact with me. I ask myself, what was that? Even though, I know her other person was in the driver seat of that car, I just got to know why did she feel compelled to look at me when she was entering the car. She got away this time, but I want to see her again.

Today, I was on my way to buy some clothes hangers from a place, but my neighbors had their dog running around the yard. This dog came running by me, and my car door was open so he jumped in it. I didn't try to harm him or anything, I just looked like how you like that. The dog wanted to ride with me today. It's hilarious, how this all went down. I didn't inform the neighbors about this, but had he shitted in my car, then some stuff would've went down. Luckily, the dog got the hint and left the inside of my car alone. My day is pretty much over.

til next time.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

Bayou classic day!

Yep, like clock work the annual Grambling St.vs Southern U. game is going to go on today. Until this year, the event was held in New Orleans, our home. It doesn't seem right that the game is being played somewhere else, other than New Orleans. By all means, this is not a negative jab at the wonderful city of Houston, but the bayou classic, that is simply New Orleans. The atmosphere around the city every year grew with enormous anticipation. A number of citizens have either attended,graduated,or has someone in their close circle who goes or went to these landmark historically black universities. Even people who never enjoyed school were in rare form for this game. Many people didn't even want to attend the game, because really the game was a preview into a very long,and sometimes unforgettable night. The day was based on the football game,but many people really didn't care which team the won the game. The genuine battle was between the schools marching bands. That's were many people became divided on. Personally, I am not a bandhead, so I didn't give a damn which trumpet section was louder, or whose drum major was the best. I was only interested in the cheerleaders, and how many good looking college educated black females were in town. Ah, my mini paradise was on display. For years I had forgone this experience, and didn't attend this extravaganza of black love,pride,and entertainment. Last year, I was all over Canal Street, and had a glorious time looking, flirting, and fondling my way through the crowds of females. The environment is so raw, and the energy levels are tipping the scales. The NOPD are out in high alert, and the party doesn't necessarily have a time for stoppage. It's as long as you can hang, and then some more. This is just my assumption, but I think that a lot of people do somethings that they never thought they would do. That is what the Bayou Classic is. Many people who meet for the first time have some lasting relations formed and founded in the midst of this party. There are some instances of violence that occur, luckily I have never had an altercation out there. Most of the credit goes to my g"d up swagger, but seriously, I am a cool customer. I don't really want to get into a fist fight with any of those pricks. I am always moving, and never trying to stay in one spot and wait for trouble to come from out the darkness. One of the many reasons, that I am still alive today, at 23.

I enjoyed Thursday, it was okay. I ate some gumbo,cake, and watched my Cowboys lose in a nail-biter to the Denver Broncos. It was very good game, I just wanted the outcome to be different.

The biggest shopping day of the year, and they weren't telling any lies. I was at a local shopping center on yesterday, and it was crowded. I love when it's packed, the ladies are swarming like a hive was attacked. This is going to be wonderful for the last month of the year, and too think I might be in store for more in years to come, out here in TX.

Til next time, hug yourself, so you can know what it's like when you hug someone else.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers,and roam safely in the wilderness

Happy Holidays!

Yeah, don't over eat in your other pastime of over self-indulgence. That's a message for every american citizen. Oh, how we love to make everyone just like us. Hey, we will even introduce racism into an utopian like society. That's just who we are, but this is a time to give thanks, and not bring up the past. The past is bad, it actually shows us why we are so divided and not on the same pages in this country. Freedom for all, except for the people who we feel area beneath us. You know what happens to those people, we murder them all off. We might be the only people who are socially hypnotized to think that this day should be celebrated. Puritans eating and drinking with Native Americans before they slaughter them. Boy, how I think this day is so one-sided and only built to give thanks to the killers of fellow human beings. Then again, maybe I am too cynical to see my own mistakes in furthering this factual myth, that we should give thanks. Personally, I don't give thanks to any gods that many people around the world thank for their materials, and possessions. I thank the only god I can see, and that's me. Look at the world, and tell me if you would want a god to be overseeing this tragic experiment. I honestly, wouldn't want to find out that a god has been sleeping on the job for eons, and never tried to back track on it's decisions to create.

There goes another one, I guessed you've heard the Nick and Jessica are splitsville. I am saddened by this. I wanted their marriage to work out for the long haul, but yay, Jessica is back on the market. For the ladies, Nick is on the market too. I don't want to cheer to loudly, because I think they will get back to together in some years, or unless she meets me. Word to Nick, you missed out homie. You should be calling her, and begging her to reconsider. Nick, you have talent, but Jessica was bringing you tons of fame you didn't earn. You are an A-lister because she was grinding so hard in the entertainment industry, and you were married to her. If I were you I would beg her on all fours to reconsider. Good luck to you both.

Madonna seems to be back on her hustle. She recently scored the #1 spot on the charts. Congrats to you, material girl. P.s. stop with all the religious bullshit, the look doesn't suit you.

Shakira, I 've never seen a woman who was covered in dirt look so hot in my young days. In th e video," La Tortura" she looks absolutely lovely. Now, I know the video is months old, but I had something called a Hurricane K on my mind, so forgive me for being slow on this uptake. I want to be cast as her love interest in her next music video, and they will have to entice me with something else, to leave the set. I am in cross culture love with her. Don't let me talk about her accent, the most wonderful sounds in the world come out of her mouth when she speaks. She is so special, and so talented. She will rule for years to come, and I will be cheering her on all the way.

Special happy holidays to all the troops stationed around the world, who defend us. These inappreciative assholes, who just want to pray their way out of situations that their gods have in interest in.

Pussycatdolls, happy holidays to all of you too. I love you Nicole. Til next time, I am out for lunch,and behave yourselves in my absence.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

I heard from the man!

Finally, D.B. gave me a phonecall, and let me know that I am missed sorely back home in New Orleans. I wasn't surprised to hear from him at all. He and many others are some reasons why I will miss living in Lousiana,TX, is on and poppin. I am having a blast in TX. The chicks, and malls. Sorry, got side-tracked for a few sentences. Back to the call, he was just informing me of how the insurance companies are taking their dear time trying not to raise any amounts of money for the displaced citizens of New Orleans. I told him," We have had no such luck either. Our insurance company is asking as if we don't exist, and it sucks,hurts,and makes you very angry."

We were good to ourselves, and to them. We paid our bills on time, and they act as if that doesn't matter. The citizens are being treated unfairly, and that needs to told on all the local news stations. We chatted about other stuff, and told each other about some experiences we were having in our dreams, and how it has affected us. Very interesting conversation we had.

All in all, I will miss the people of N.O.,but I won't miss the politics.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers and roam safely in the wilderness

Livejournal.com?

Well, I had a journal on this website, but it seems to be messed up. It refuses to let me log on with my old password. I am upset about this, I had some beautiful stuff written on that board, and to have them own it now is uncomfortable for me, to type the least. I want to contact the webmaster, and tell him to release my records, and let me gain authorship of my words, but then again, I don't know. Sometimes, you have a lost on your record, even when you didn't have an appropriate fight to determine who was better. They will miss me on those boards, I had some very insightful musings, but I don't mind sharing with the new folks here. Hopefully, I can continue to be a bright spot on web, in blog circles everywhere.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness.