Parts of 2005 under review!

Beautiful, I miss you so much that on the insides I am screaming great balls of fire. Have you ever had a crush on someone you find just so attractive that you can't help it. Well, that's the feeling I had, past tense, when I would see her walking around on the campus of UNO. Let my life be a lesson to everyone, don't let the days go by without attempting to grab hold to that person you have a strong attraction too. If she doesn't intersect with me ever again in life, I will die knowing that I too had a crush. This story would come to a close, if she was the only girl I let slip pass my outstretched hands. No, not me, I let many slip pass my hands in 2005. Some would say, that was the carry over from 2004, and I would agree. Their name begins with the letter D. D, I had a chance with D1 and D2, but I lost out on those chances. I still can pick up the phone and holler at D1, but D2 that situation is so last year, so 2005. Honestly, I haven't even lost sleep over D2. She was a sweet girl, but I wasn't her speed in my estimation. I had too much going on to really put forth the effort that it would've taken to close the deal on her. Also, I should add the second biggest crush of my life. My patna and I just refer to her, as simply " INDIAN FLUTE." She looked like she was of indian ancestry, but she could've been arabian, or a number of nationalities. I all I know was that she the prettiest girl I had ever seen in my life, and I had a strong feeling that she liked me back. Hell, she was my creative inspiration for a while. All I had to do was picture her face in mind and the words would bleed on the stage. Mind you, that I was trying to get deeper into something with a close friend of mine at the time, but she was concentrating on getting her degree and pushed me to the side for some time. She came back to her senses, and returned back to my fold. For reasons that are beyond me, she still has to be in my life. Either as a precious flower or a heel. In any context she still has a spot in my spotty mind. In my opinion, all things being totally unequal. I might marry her, and I am not a man who loves the idea of the ball and chain. But for her, I would take a bowl of my happiness, and dump it on the ground in the hopes that she was satisfied with my gesture. Aww, isn't that sweet? Hell no it's not sweet, I am dumping every thing that I love in the hopes that this chick would be happy. What's great about that? Nothing I tell you. P was a girl who I flirted with from time to time. I got her number also, but when I called they told me I had the wrong number. I never quite got around to asking her, what was the deal, but she knew I was interested in her. I had tremendous options in 2005, but I seemed to have lost every ounce of them, and it's all my fault. My 2006 resolution, get laid more. Succeed more than fail, and win more times than I lose.

Hurricane K was a huge factor in the later months of 2005. The Hurricane destroyed houses, families, and an entire region. The affects of this gigantic storm will be felt for generations. Many kids will born in different cities from their parents birthplace. My family and I were in LA when the storm first came ashore, and we stayed at a cousin's home. She was splendid, and did everything you could ask for. Update: FEMA is still screwing me around. UNO is still holding back my funds. I have been accepted into UTA, but I don't know how the financial funds will be disbursed. I tell you, I am in limbo, and I don't ask anyone for help. I will figure something out in the next few weeks. Well, I hope so.

REST in safe peace to all of the deceased 2005. Happy New Year to you and yours. Til next year.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

Falling to Pieces!

Well, that's when I know that I am alive. When the complete puzzle begins to unravel, then I know that I was in the position to secure a place in the world. I guess it's to be expected that I will feel less then stellar. After all, I had a very good run of it, and I couldn't ask for more. Then, the question could be stated that I was faking it all along. I don't necessarily know, but I do know that I will force this emotional shift back to the positive side of things. But, the gray and uncertain areas is where I do some of the best material that I can fathom.

A person in my life flew into town on Tuesday. I was happy to see her, and then I wasn't to excited. I don't know maybe it's me getting over the mistakes I made by trying to be with her, or not. All I know now is that I feel like she owes me about 2 1/2 years of my life back, and I will collect because I can be seen as a repo man. That explains why, I gave her the iceberg cold shoulder, and I will continue to do so. In many respects, I know she doesn't deserve me, and that's the main reason that I am cutting her loose. Saying farewell to you, and I hope you live a prosperous life. Giving people who wronged you well wishes is a surefire way to make them regret their decision making for the rest of their lives. She will realize it when it's over after all that she made a huge error by not treating a king with the honor the title bestows. Nuff about that.

Well, the X-MAS day was okay. All I did was play PS2 on and off. Watch some stuff, no, I wrote some stuff. Some really good stuff too. I sent this to my pal down by the bayou, and he emailed back saying he would deliver it for me tonight at the open mic.

Anyway, I don't really make plans to celebrate a new year, and all the hoopla. But this incoming year seems different. I feel I need to let off some tension, and meet some interesting hot chicks, and become close acquaintances with them. LA, yeah the other LA. They can have LA that LA that the city of New Orleans is apart of. I really have no ultimate desire to return and live. I feel slighted by all of them in the bayou area. I also feel slighted by FEMA and UNO. Both parties haven't sent me my just do as I type now. It's ashame how they treat this college student. I didn't do anything to wrong these guys. I have no idea on why they are doing me so dirty.

Sometimes, I think it's true. That you carry negatives in one area in your life to all areas, and vice versa with the positive sides. I just have to keep moving forward, and denouncing all who challenge my authority of the throne. I will not lose, simply put.

Tony Dungy went back to coach his NFL COlts, and I guessed he would. It's a good diversion from his reality right now, and I can't blame him at all for that. I wish him the best, but not his colts. Although, I pre-season picked them to win the bowl this year. I don't know why, I just picked them. My cowboys still have a chance to go to the postseason, and that will make a good start to 2006 for me, but we need some help. One reason why I am pulling for the saints to beat the bucs, and I want a NYG lost to the redskins. Then, the redskins could lose, and that would make me even more happier. Go Dallas.

Pussycatdolls on Ellen. I was thrilled to see NICOLE and the girls from PCD on the t.v. today. Damn, Nicole gets more beautiful by the second. I would have kids for that woman. I would definitely try to make her my #1 pick in the female draft. Sorry Brooke Valentine, Beyonce, Mariah, Adriana. Hold up, I think I would select Adriana Lima too. Then, that would be to unfair, but only unfair to these pricks, not necessarily myself.

My Mother went to a hospital in Fort Worth yesterday, and she was told about her high blood pressure. It's true over these last trying months she has been overextending herself. She has been stressing out over the flood insurance people lying to us on every occasion. She has been worried about FEMA screwing us over, and all the other adventures that being an evacuee of Hurricane K entails. On today, the doctor instructed her to stop eating all of those salty foods, and cut down on her caffeine and salt intakes. I will definitely make sure she follows the doctors orders. I am hard on her, but I know she can be better, and I want her to be better. Hell, I am under intense scrutiny and I have been since I took my first breath in this world. The toughness that being a middle child has been a gift and curse on me. Though, I will only take it as the challenge that will not defeat me. I will not lose, and that' s about it.

You think I ain't worth a dollar, but I feel like a millionaire!

The first song off of the "Songs for the Deaf" cd by QOTSA. That's my emotions going into this festive season. I couldn't be anything remotely close to a person who is rich to you, but on my insides, I have a publishers' clearinghouse emotion going on. Maybe it's the idea that I am standing up for myself with one of my weaknesses, or it's the fact that I don't need them to make me feel happy with myself. Either 1 or 2 is the reason for my upbeat season. I am just in a relax, New York state of mind. Then again, I am in a New Fortune state of mind. The wheels on my creative vehicle have been moving well on the highways of life. Like pieces to a jigsaw puzzle, I have been placing it all together, and at a fast pace. Yesterday, I emailed 3 slices of my creative pie to my friend back in New Orleans. As always, he was honored to read them. I just wish he did a follow-up. I would like to know how they turned out. I know they were written with a good idea in mind, but I don't know if he read them the way I would. I mean, I had a certain rhythm with I was present on the open mic stage. I switched up the delivery often, and that kept many audiences on their listening toes. That was how I proved myself as a mighty wordsmith on the creative scene in the streets of New Orleans.

I haven't taken the correct approach in applying my verbal gifts to the people of DFW, yet. I am not shy in front of the audience, but I have been more focused on completing my projects, instead of sharing them at the weekly open mics. Plus, I don't won't to have an emotional letdown from seeing how they treat these events in DFW. I am trying not to put to much pressure on the whole scene, and compare it to the scene down by the bayou, and then conclude that this one doesn't have that much to offer. Writing this scene off because of my inability to move forward is a mistake, and I will not make that hasty conclusion. Basically, because I fell in mad love with the whole N.O. movement, and then she and I had to separate for the time being. I don't won't to take on a new love, even though I know it has to be this way. Who knows, maybe in 2006, I will reign supreme on the DFW scene, but if I don't I can't worry.

So what am I buying Jessica Alba for X-Mas? I honestly, don't know what to get for her. I have an idea of what she would like, but I will not drop any hints. If I know her, she's reading this blog just hoping I divulge my plans for that evening. Sorry Dark Angel, you will have to wait.

Adriana, Adriana, that name just makes my mind quiver with excitement, joy, glee, and envy. Envy because I don't know her. I have never had the pleasure of laying my eyes to her eyes, and smiling at her. Even if she didn't smile back, I would be pleased to know I attempted to get at her. So I need this segment the same as it began, Adriana, Adriana.

Nicole, you are my sweetheart, and I will have you a precious gift. Why? Because she is everything to me. I ask, no I plead, that she love me two times. PCD rules.
Happy holidays to you all, and remember to keep the kids indoors on the DEC.25. They did until the 1800's. So let's go back to that, and know that if the bible's hero was born in the spring. Plus his story is very bad corroborated, so be careful at X-Mas services.

til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

F*uck the city of Gretna,LA

It is ashamed the way the people, mayor, police chief, and city council reacted in the wake of the Hurricane K disaster. I've read about the story, and have heard detailed accounts from evacuees who were attempting to leave the city of New Orleans by way of the Mississippi River bridge, and had there progress impeded by the chief of police. Recently, a city official of Gretna was on CBS' 60 minutes, and he gave reasons as to why this blockade was put into motion during one of the most hectic situations in recent memory that took place in the U.S.A. He said, that the looting, stories of rape, shootings, and burning of buildings that were taking place in New Orleans made them react in an incompassionate way. I agree, all of these events were taking place, but they were done by a minority of the evacuees. On that bridge to Grenta, people just wanted to leave the chaos, unrest, and find some place to feel safe again. 80% of my emotions tend to lean that this was racist in every way. Had those people on that bridge all be of European descent, they wouldn't have had any problem crossing that bridge to safety.

Though, the mayor said, The city of Gretna didn't have the means to accommodate all of the stranded residents of New Orleans in their city, and I agree with that. It still doesn't give them right to refuse passage across a state owned bridge, and besides, the evacuees who were attempting to make that trek where tired, weary, uneasy, hungry, women,children,elderly, and still they were refused entrance into Gretna. The white people in Gretna should be appalled at their actions, and should all be put in the same situation that my people faced on that dreadful day, but then, I am better than that. They should live a frugal life, and live with the fact that people were desperate for help, and their officials who represent them did not do a thing to help. Would you like to live in a place who felt that way about you? I wouldn't, and that's one of the reasons why I refuse to go back to LA. Let them have the place, and toil in their own hatred, I am through spewing my smoke on those chumps.

On to better things.

Dallas, TX Jingle jam was off the hook. Jeezy, TI, Bun B, Weezy, and others set it off in the Convention Center. We arrived late, around 7:25 are so. Webbie was on stage doing whatever it is he does. All I know, the crowd was excited to see him, and he put on a good 10 minutes that I saw. The ladies were looking pretty good, and I had the chance to see some of the best in Big D. They didn't disappoint, they were dancing, showing their thongs and shit. You know doing what they do to let loose.

It was my first time actually seeing one of my former classmates perform since he has been in the music industry. I must say that I was proud of the guy. He has made himself a success, and he's good at rapping. All in all, Jezzy impressed me the most. I didn't know that his debut cd rocked that hard. I want a copy of that Thug Motivation. In attendance was a mixed crowd, as I knew it would be. It's the young generation of consumers that is keeping the hip-hop industry close to the top, and by that I mean the youthful white people. Many people were from the Boot. New Orleans was in effect from the outset. They had everything New Orleans loves; mary jane, scantily clad females, young thugs with gold and platinum in their mouths, a fight, loud music, and the chance to see some homies show each other love.
The night was pretty good; partially because I was trying to leave with a 10 female, but because I ate Whataburger. A meal I haven't had since the beginning of the month.
til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

We will miss you, Richard!

I like many of you will miss the man, Richard Pryor. He is without any doubt one of the best comics in comedic history. His work is very influential and controversial. He was inspiring to many of us, because he lived and spoke about the intricacies of society, and that related to us in America, the Black America and White America. Living with the illness he had was no walk at the park, and over time his heart, body, and living spirit grew weary. It was indeed time for him to leave this place, and leave us with the memories we can share of him, when he was at his best. On the stage suggesting to us, that we can do better, and he hoped we understood that.
The world sheds tears when she loses one of her favorite sons, and she cry heavily because you have left her, Mr. Pryor. I will continue to tell the surrounding people in the world about you, and your legacy.

The cowboys won, they really won. I am so excited about my boys beating the chiefs. Did we ever need a win? It was that game, and how we won it. That game has to be one of the top ten of the season. Hall catching that pass to set up a potential game tying field goal, whew, the sweat being wiped off of coaches face. Grandmama, is the real deal. That youngster ran all over us in TX. I was impressed with his play, and he should be good for years to come.

It's Reggie Bush, 2005 Heisman trophy winner. When he becomes the #1 draft pick in this year's draft some team is going to be ecstatic. I hope he doesn't go to S.F. then they would have something to celebrate for by the bay. Everyone knows that the cowboys fans totally dislike 49er fans. It's mostly the case, unless some hot sex is involved with some very hot chicks. I tell you no lie, if she was super hot, I would pluck her no matter which NFL team she cheers for. After all, real players don't let anything get in the way of the game.

I just want one hundred chances with Adriana Lima, that's all I want for X-mas. Find a mall Santa that's delivering that, and then I would tell the world that Santa is no fake at all.

It seems that I am booked for the weekend. My car is in the shop and she's not doing to well. Her transmission needs to be repaired, the clutch, and a host of other stuff. The cost is well over 1,500$ and any donations would be appreciated. The more time passes, the more I think that something is out to foil me.

I didn't know that playing poker is so fun. I signed up at bodog and went into the games with no sense of how to play, but I soon learned the game plan. I tell you, it's addictive. I've playing for hours now, and I still want to play more. Maybe it's the allure of playing with free money that has me feeling such an adrenaline rush, but then again. I like being welcomed to the jungle. Please by all means sign up and you will play against me in a game of TX hold em. I have to go back and reserve my chair.

til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

100 most lusicous chicks, askmen.com

I have just finished reading through, and gawking at the the selections on the list. I must say, that I wasn't upset with the list, but I am peeved that Jessica Alba wasn't rated higher. Only a 78, come on, she is more appealing than a slew of them chicks who were rated before her. I guess, as long as you are on the list, you can't complain. I searched the list looking for her, and I found her ducked away in the seventies. I was surprised that she wasn't in the top 50, but then that's my bias showing up in the selections process. The crown of Number 1 bombshell goes to Adriana Lima, and she really makes a case for herself. Have you seen her, she is almost otherworldly. Her eyes are a mixture of two colors, blue and gray, which gives an appeal that words can't correctly describe. I remember seeing this chick on the new victoria secret commercials, and I had my eyes on her. I never went to search for her photo, or name, but it came up today in a search I was conducting on Pampita Ardohain. She was the female I was looking for more info on, but something went wrong with the search, and I was placed on the askmen,com site. I read site from time to time, but I am not the biggest fan. Now, I don't disagree with the guys on the site, I just like experiencing stuff on my own. Though, sometimes I do read for the advice tips they give, but I like to read for the ladies that will be posted on the site.

My younger brother turned 22 today, yeah the tike is clearing the way. It won't be long for when the time comes when he finally extends his hands fully and takes flight like an eagle. Hopefully, the time and tides come in soon, so he can begin the life that he sees himself living, and I could take some solace in knowing I helped along the way. Though not too much, but more than usual. I was a tough love older brother. I didn't hang around with the him as much as I should've, but it made him tougher. I guess I was preparing him for the world, and the fact that the people most closely related to you will harm you. A lot of harm doesn't come from physical attacks, though many do occur with this intent. Several of our hurt live become that way because of the mental abuse we have endured as young kids growing up. I use to think it was unfair, but I know it carved mountains of anger in me, that has helped to form me into this facade of invincibility that I wear.

Til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

God save itself!

I think we all should re-examine some things in our lives, and the wacky things we tend to believe as being truthful. My re-examination was founded upon the god question. Since I was a young boy, I didn't buy into the god concept fully. My percentage by my own admission was at the highest level of maybe 60%. Having only a 60% approval of there being a god is very low, in my fanatic religious family, and there is a reason, that I was an oddball. I just didn't the purchase the whole concept of god, and if that were to get out, these lovely xtians would love to disown me. In many cases this problem persists. Many people are more loving to something they have only read about, and they have read about this something with mental blinders on, but they would destroy a person who is in their face everyday. I don't mean to ramble, but it bothers me, and it should bother many more people. That people are so self serving for their own pie in the sky dreams, that they treat others like crap. It's my opinion that god divides, and I haven't seen any reason why I should change my stance, and I don't think I will in my lifetime.

Til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness.

The news channels!

I know it's not me, but does the news seem to getting more tragic by the days. Bombs, blasts, and more torrid weather conditions, the usual rounds of murder, rape, pillaging, and mayhem. I think the animalistic behaviors of our species is has already surfaced, and the governments of world are trying to conspire to keep this secret enclosed. Then, I think to myself, how will they do that when we are seeing all of this stuff on t.v., and some of are committing these acts. Humans, man you can't live with them, but you sure can have sex with them. I might just be coming under the weather, but then again I am always this cynical, I think. Well, I didn't go to the airport today, and I am happy about that. The roads in north TX had ice on them, and I am not a fan at all of driving on ice slicked roads with these assholes. They drive without the aid of hazardous weather, so think how bad they are with torrential inclimate weather. It's so cold that cars have sicles of ice at the bottoms of them, and the windshields are covered with ice. A warning should be posted, watch your step in the grassy areas. Wear shoes that have the proper footing at the bottoms of them, and be prepared to hit the cold cement ground if you should happen to stumble. I am from New Orleans, jack. It was cold down by the bayou at times, but I never experienced southern chills like this. I recall, when I went to Washington D.C. when Clinton was in office, and the whole oral sex shit was hitting the fans and desks. It was real cold out their one day, hell, it was freezing. I had my leather jacket, but I didn't have a hat. D.C. was real cool. We toured Georgetown, and ate at the cafeteria there, I think. Well, I know I saw some hot chicks on Georgetown's campus. For a minute I contemplated the idea of attending Georgetown, but that fell through. Who knows, I might have to attend GTU in the future, as a grad student possibly.

Sleeper Cell, I am an addict to this show now. I caught it on last night, and I am hooked. Ealy, and the guy who played on Charmed are really good in this series. I like the premise of the show, and the moral aspects that are on display in the show. In the episode that I happened to watch was great. The sc guys had to travel to Mexico and meet with some fiancial guys. The fiancial guys had gambling, prostitution houses that had children as the main hookers, drug spots and many other activities. I can't really explain the rest, because I want you to watch for yourself, and tell me how right I am about this show.

Hot Properties, I am a fan of this comedy show too. For Sofia Vergara, of course. She is lovely, and I would just love to be around her. Man, she is a fantasy. I think all of the females on that show are good, but I am in love with that Lola, Sofia plays that part.

T-Mac, my boy came in and did a job on Pierce and the Celts. I always knew he could shut this guy down, and in that game he proved it. Yao, got some toughness in that game. That cut on his eye looked pretty bad, but he came back in, and contributed to the game. I like seeing that, and I know rockets fans all over love the sight of that. Hopefully, we could win 7 games and get to .500 in the month of December.

til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness.

I thank you, Ms.Hughes!

I never properly thanked Ms.Hughes for teaching me the arrangements on a keyboard, back in high school. She taught me how to type and keep my eyes on the screen. How to let my fingers and mind do all the work. She was a wonderful keyboard instructor, and I was selected as one of her favorite students in that class. I still to this day can't put my finger on why she took a liking into me. Maybe it's because I never gave her any trouble, and I wanted to excel at using the typewriter. Who knows? I don't know where she is now, but I thank her for all she did to help me improve my usage of the keyboard.

DFW airport anyone? I was there today, picking up someone from my family again. It was funny this chick is comical. She has the rare ability that makes you not think of her temporary lapses in intelligence, and judge her as being dimwitted. I kind of like that about her, but she can become an irritant, but not to me. Her family thinks of her that way, and I try sticking up for her, but her family will have nothing of it. Her mother attempts at every turn to belittle the child, but deep down, I think she envies her. She envies her because the daughter is everything she used to be, and that just kills her. A novel of their lives I could write about, and that statement is copyrighted, like everything else I write. Anyway, it appears that the weather will be a hom dinger on tomorrow, and I will have the courtesy of bringing her and the baby to the airport for another round if the weather permits. There is talk of snow and ice on the roads. I have never driven on snowy roads and ice, and I won't start now. I don't care who needs to get back to H-town. I will not put myself in harms way just for the sake of someone else, I come first damn it, and the world or surrounding people around will know that for sure. I will miss the baby, she has grown quite fond of me, and I of her. She's the prettiest little thing, and she uses that sometimes to get her way. I admit that I am a sucker for those brown eyes.

Who else is a writers almanac junkie? I seriously breathe to read that stuff. Next to my stuff that's some of the best material that I read, and I love the way Keilor reads on the site. Back in New Orleans at 2:00 p.m. in the afternoon everyday it came on, and I would try to catch it when I got out of class. Man, I do miss those days when I was at an university. Nevermind though, if all goes my way on this issue I could be in one come this Jan.

Jessica Alba, I love you. til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness.

Sing, Sing, sing!

That's a title from the Big band era of music, composed by Benny Goodman. A man you should want to know more about. Not because I am telling you so, but because I am tellin you so. Check the wind chill on that drift.

Ah, today was a cool day. I went to the UTA and filled out an application for the spring semester. I asked someone where the admissions office was, and made my way there. When I got there, I noticed this person, who looked decent enough for some relations. This desk working chick was shaped nicely man. She helped out your favorite internet blogger a lot. Let's see, she gave me the application to fill out, and that about wraps up her stint in this situation. Nah, seriously the on campus folks I saw, they look like they are okay. For instance, in the library on the 5th floor there was a hot little number studying her pretty face off. I got the feeling that it's final exams week at the university, and many people are trying to cram their ways into a passing grade. Nothing is wrong with that, we all like to get good grades in the world of academia.

I like the place, but I think I should try to go to the UHawaii. I want to go to the south pacific, man. For the girls, yes, but for the change of scenery that I really need. I don't know what it is, but I need to go somewhere, or my head might start to spin backwards, on some exorcist type shit. It's getting to be that serious for me. I have been trying my best to downplay my emotions on this issue, but they seem to linger longer than I would like for them to be present. Could be a myriad of reasons, who knows. I might be missing the fellow LA citizens more than I would like to admit, or I really miss my family folks. Nah, I don't miss the family folks that much. Those assholes miss me more.

I do miss my girls, man. I miss Ms.P, Ms.R, Ms. L/B, and Ms.L again. I do miss being around them, but who knows this writing shit might work out, and then I would have enough pesos to find the lovelies that I really need around me. The likes of : Jessica Alba, Nicole, Trish, Sofia, Vida, and Tatyana. I like these women in the entertainment business a lot. Add Jessica Simpson on their too. Nick, you are a big time loooooser. I don't know if you believe in god, I know I don't. If you do, you should pray to your higer power, and plead with it to change the mind of your wife. I know I am not the only person who feels that Nick will loose out big time over this. She is about to be really huge, and I think her next album will be a pop classic. Nick's about to have his 3 year marriage with Jessica played on disc format. She will write many songs regarding this guy, ala, Gwen and her situation with Tony and the "Tragic Kingdom" album. This is going to be something to watch, and marvel at. Then again, her next album could really be bad, but I don't think that's going to happen.

I wrote some really good pieces of late, and I will post them when I feel like it. Who loves the Boondocks? I know I do, and Family guy, American Dad, and Grey's Anatomy. Sundays have the best t.v. line ups. That's my story, and I am sticking with it.

How about the NFL on yesterday? The bengals played exceptionally well, and knocked off the steelers. I talk about this in more detail later. Til next time.

hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

7-5, is no way to go into the postseason!

Dallas,Dallas why didn't you guys make the plays to win? My cowboys went into today's game for first place with the giants, and we blew a huge chance today. I am upset about this, because I know we have a tough road ahead of us. The chiefs are headed into Dallas next week, and we need to be focused on them. They won't lie down for us, and they are fighting for a playoff birth themselves. It's going to be a barn burner in TX this coming week. I think we have enough to beat them, but I haven't been right the last two game days. Anyway, as long as Philly loses on Monday night I will be satisfied. No Mcnabb, no good opinions about them from me.

Here in TX, I ask do they use any birth control at all. It seems that almost every girl around here has one, no, two, no, three, or I can't really count them all. Sex is a heavy commodity out here, I haven't slept with any TX girls to know, yet. Only from my observations, I can assume that it's that way, excluding the girls I see who have no kids attached on their hips. I can be wrong, I have only been in TX for 2 months and some days, so what do I know. Best believe me, not from a lack of observing. I am just buying my time on these TX girls, and then I will hit them with efficiency. My hang up is I don't know if they have racial hang ups or what not. Some white and latino chicks don't dig black guys. No matter how internationally handsome I am. It's their choice, so I don't fuss with it. Though, I've never been turned away before, so why should it start now. I am just looking for the right looking white girls, man. She has to have pamela anderson boobs, man. No, I am not joking. Sike I am joking. The latin girls are sick with theirs. They have some serious sex appealing vibes that they give off to me, only by the eye contact, dude. Then again, my head might be so swelled up until I think they want a piece of the kid. If you didn't know, I got my swagger back in caps, pimpin. It's the the guy who overcomes his personal battles, and settles his squabbles. I am back on my gris_ ley.

Truth be told, I think I could pluck Jessica Simpson and she is only separated from Nick. Nick, go and get your woman. She is looking to good to leave, and you should reconsider.

How about 2 million dollars, for your paper to run a positive story about the U.S.A. I know you have heard about our Pentagon paying the Iraqi papers for positive news stories. Who cares if they are made up? That's the attitude our country has on this issue. My question, why has the attacks on the Bush Administraitor not been in high octane levels recently. We should be cleaning the clock with this story, and many others that have fell into our laps lately. Don't forget about Katrina?

til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness.

You know what this is, a recap of sorts!

Today was haircut day, and the wait at the barber shop wasn't as long as usual on weekends. I was behind about 3 people but that was all. My adopted barber cuts my hair pretty fast now. He has gotten use to how I want my tapered cut to rock. It's a beautiful thing, and I look real nice. Nice enough to be eaten by Jessica Alba, Shakira, or Nicole. Hell, all three can have a nice sized chunk of me. I wouldn't mind it at all, to be stretched to exhaustion by these lovely,lovely females. Talk about heaven, yeah, that's my version of the place. To think, I would assume that's a lot of heterosexual men's opinion of what heaven should really have there and be like. I mean, what type of place that's supposed to be paradise, not have these women. I couldn't think of a better way for me to spend an eternity. Then again, would that be their version of heaven, and I am assuming that, I, being in the equation might be axed out. So what I want in my heaven won't be want they want in theirs. Figures, I can never really get what I want. It always interferes with someone else's wishes. Damn blasted choices.

Well, I was at the Parks Mall in Arlington. You already know, it must of been give-a-pretty-girl a handclap day. Because I saw some lovelies that deserved an applause today. Everytime I go there, I anticipate the next time I will be there. It's that serious with me, and I go to shop at Foleys Department store. I've purchased a lot of items from Foleys, and my wardrobe seems to be getting better, ah, why am I being humble. My operation funky fresh is back on and poppin. I am sticking my foot in their asses once again. Once again, it's the incredible. I am relentless now, and stepping my game up to a new height. Not the level of tallness that I was at prior, but at a nice level tall. Don't be fooled, I will reach that meteoric rise once again. Sooner than most people think. I am focused on regaining every ounce of confidence that I lost.

Countdown to FEMA, they still haven't sent me anything. Not even a word of advice. I tell you, the government helps those in need, but unless you're white, they help at their own pace.

Daddy Brad, yep, he's going to adopt his "friend's" kids. Why don't people just say that they're fucking the crazy legs out of each other? I know I would, if I was having intercourse with Ms.Jolie, or if I swung that way, with Mr.Pitt. I digress, I give them all the best.

Oprah handled herself nicely with Letterman. I didn't have any doubts that she would, but it was interesting to see. For as long as I can recall, she has always been the interviewer not the other way around. It made some very good t.v. moments to close out the 2005 year forever.

til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

The feeling is restored!

Well, for the last six or so days. I have been experiencing difficulties creatively with my writing. Now, you may ask yourself the question, How. Because I have been so on this site writing at a very high level, if I do say so myself. Let me explain, a few years ago when I decided that I wanted to write for the rest of my life, I started a rigorous routine. My routine was as planned. I wanted to write something everyday, until I became the perfect writing specimen, and then I would be half way towards my goal of becoming a literary pupil to all the greats of literature. Since I made that declaration, I have struck true to my self imposed regimen, though, I do miss some days because of my laziness. I guess because it comes so natural to me is one reason why, I seem to take it for granted sometimes. I never sleep on it. One of the reasons I am alive today is because I started releasing all of my emotions and thoughts in between the papers' lines. This generated a new awakening in myself, and I have not been the same since. An astral sensation is what I am after, a line from a poem I wrote in August 2005 titled. I won't reveal the name of the piece yet. Just know that my feeling is restored in my pen. Not that is gone for a long time, but I don't won't to be without it for half of a nano second. It's that serious for me. I penned something this morning, and I like it a lot. I will be posting some of my work on this site real soon.

Shakira, I am so sorry that I missed you this morning on ABC. You know it wasn't intentional, I was fatigued, but you know I will search for that performance.

til next time. hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness

Returning home?

I feel like it's campaigning time, but it's not for a presidential election. It's a campaign to assure evacuated citizens that New Orleans is such a wonderful place to live again. Personally, if I was in the same position as Mr.Nagin, then, I would be on that same trail trying to get some intelligent citizens back into the city. Not necessarily intelligent, but just citizens period. He is doing his job. I don't fault him for his efforts, though, I think they are more self serving to him, then the people who are listening to his speeches of a bigger,better,and stronger New Orleans. The levees aren't being rebuilt and I haven't heard of a time table for the reconstruction to be underway. This is a situation that I would question him about, if I were in the areas where he was holding speeches, and spreading his self serving tales. I don't know how many have jumped on his bandwagon to come back to the city, but I know I haven't taken him up on his offer. I will visit the people of the city, but as far as me actually living there again, I don't know. If the dreams of reconstruction become reality, and then maybe I could consider it, but until that time it's all up in the air. Peace to everyone who wants to be there again, but me, ask about me.

Dark Angel was interesting again, though I can't really recall what the episode was about. I know that Max was looking real sexy in it, as always. I think it's the season that she was cancelled, but I don't care. I will watch it like it's back on the air.

I recall a few months back, when I use to go the poetry open mics and slaughter my colleagues and open up the mental capacities of the audience. It sends chills down my spine to actually realize, how days, though always followed by another, changes our lives.

til next time, hunt for the kill to save the starving villagers, and roam safely in the wilderness